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[kippurbird]

It's either because I'm off my meds or because of whatever, but I can't brain.

I've been having trouble writing, putting down words to paper, even just inane trivial stuff.

I can't even doodle correctly. My doodles are just like... scribbles, not even proper shapes. They're abstractions of abstractions. I can't focus. I can't do anything.

This is the perfect opportunity, isn't it? I've got no work! I have all the free time in the world to write! And I can't get a single word to paper in a proper way that makes coherent sense. RP'ing is hard too.

Writing this entry is hard. And it's not even that I've got so many ideas bubbling around that I can't put them all down coherently, it's that the hamster wheel is empty and the hamster's gone off somewhere else.

God, my posts lately have been insanely depressing.

My mom just mentioned this could be withdrawl from the meds too.

Guh.

I want my brain back.

Comments

[the-norseman.livejournal.com]

:(

Best of luck. Is there anything we can do to help?

[kippurbird.livejournal.com]

Aw.

Unfortunately not. This is one of those sort of wait it out things and not even I can do anything about that.

[kippurbird.livejournal.com]

Also I got your plush Cuthullu. :D

It is now sitting on the top of my desk glaring out at the world.

Thank you.

[the-norseman.livejournal.com]

You're welcome! Try telling him who you want him to eat ;)

[fritters.livejournal.com]

Why are you off your meds? Is there a certain amount of time it takes to normalize after, so that you can look forward to the hamster returning?

[kippurbird.livejournal.com]

I am off my meds because we mail-order them and the refill is stuck at the pharmacy. It's partially my fault that I'm out, Comic con, friend from Australia and Work Stuff happened at the same time so I forgot to order them soon enough.

Pretty much, my bad.

Now hopefully getting the medication will coax the hamster back, though I don't know how much of this funk is withdrawal and how much of this is Other Stuff. Life is fun like that.

[fritters.livejournal.com]

People are complex.

[kippurbird.livejournal.com]

And we've all lost the instruction manual.

[dungeonwriter.livejournal.com]

Hugs, things will get better.

[kippurbird.livejournal.com]

I hope so!

I'm sure it will! It's just the waiting for it to get better that is agonizing.

[ceitfianna]

*hugs* I hope you feel better.

[smurasaki.livejournal.com]

I hope your brain returns soon.

Bad brain! Running away like that.