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[kippurbird]

I think this is an autistic thing. I don't know for sure.

Anyway, person I talked to there was. Really liked said person. Then stopped talking to said person because of missigash.

Recently saw their old AIM come back on the buddy lists. So I thought about AIMing them to say hi.

But then I got all funny in the stomach and just unhappy and depressed feeling and all the bad stuff just sort of came back like it just happened. And I thought to myself... well, you know, I don't want to bring back all those bad memories and feelings like they just happened.

So... I mean, I would like to talk to her and everything... but I'm afraid to because of all the feelings.

I dunno. Maybe I'll just talk to her if she pings me. Or something. That way I know if it's a mutual thingy.

Comments

[albijuli]

It's a tricky thing, that...

Yea, I usually just wait for them to ping me back. Should they want to. >_>

[kippurbird.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I just keep on staring at the screen name going... should I? Shouldn't I? Should I? Shouldn't I?

Blegh.

[albijuli]

I do that an awful lot T_T

And when I cave in and do it, if I get no immediate response I feel even worse!

Woe. T_T

[indescane.livejournal.com]

No, I get that too sometimes. But I'm a pretty oblivious person, so I just ping them and if they don't ping me back I shrug and close the window...I'm just socially insensitive that way.