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Jul. 30th, 2007 08:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kippurbirdI think this is an autistic thing. I don't know for sure.
Anyway, person I talked to there was. Really liked said person. Then stopped talking to said person because of missigash.
Recently saw their old AIM come back on the buddy lists. So I thought about AIMing them to say hi.
But then I got all funny in the stomach and just unhappy and depressed feeling and all the bad stuff just sort of came back like it just happened. And I thought to myself... well, you know, I don't want to bring back all those bad memories and feelings like they just happened.
So... I mean, I would like to talk to her and everything... but I'm afraid to because of all the feelings.
I dunno. Maybe I'll just talk to her if she pings me. Or something. That way I know if it's a mutual thingy.
Anyway, person I talked to there was. Really liked said person. Then stopped talking to said person because of missigash.
Recently saw their old AIM come back on the buddy lists. So I thought about AIMing them to say hi.
But then I got all funny in the stomach and just unhappy and depressed feeling and all the bad stuff just sort of came back like it just happened. And I thought to myself... well, you know, I don't want to bring back all those bad memories and feelings like they just happened.
So... I mean, I would like to talk to her and everything... but I'm afraid to because of all the feelings.
I dunno. Maybe I'll just talk to her if she pings me. Or something. That way I know if it's a mutual thingy.
