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kippurbirdI bought the third series of new Who today and my mom wants to watch it. So I'm going to bring it over on Thursdays and we'll watch it before Lost. This is my happy place.
Chapter Eight
Auggie has grabbed Dear Anita up in his arms and brought the ardeur up into her.
When writing erotica, it's best NOT to bring up images of the Three Stooges. \~/
Anita is very panicky about what he did to her or what she did to him.
Then an epiphany hits me. The ardeur is rape justification. Let me walk you through this one so that you can see where I'm coming from.
Traditionally rape has always been the woman's fault. She was asking for it. The way she looked at a guy. The way she dressed. The fact that she was outside. Something she did cause the man to become overwhelmed with the desire to have sex with her. And it's something she should have been able to control, but didn't or something.
The ardeur is an overwhelming need for sex. When it surfaces anyone who is near Anita needs to have sex with her. She can't control who it touches, it's not their fault when it does touch them. It is, instead all her fault. If she knew how to control it, it wouldn't have happened and there wouldn't be a massive orgy. With Auggie it's saying that Anita goes from "finding Auggie handsome, arrogant, and beginning not to like him, to wanting to be naked with him" . It's obviously her perception, her fault for this. If she didn't have the ardeur she wouldn't have made him want to jump her like this, or for Thea and her son Thomas to want to jump her, or have forced Graham to want her or any of this.
Does that make sense?
So, Auggie is all "WANT" and Anita is "NO" and JC is coming (but not like that)! And Anita is holding so still that only her heart is moving, so she's obviously is dead because she's not breathing. The book ends. We all cheer. Auggie apparently gets off by just touching. \~/\~/
And then we learn that it's not Anita he wants but the Ardeur. Apparently Belle Morte the "Dark Mistress, the creator of them all" Beautiful Death. What a name for a vampire. Especially an ancient and old vampire. I have this picture of Belle Morte slinking around now going, "I am the MISTRESS OF DEATH AND DARKNESS" before introducing the next B movie, like Elvira. \~/ And no, I'm not drunk. \~/ Yet. \~/.
Whenever someone of Elvira's line uses "her" or "She" They're referring to dear Elvira. She sends Auggie dreams at night that make him remember the ardeur I suppose she's a MILF? Auggie is quite upset about this and Anita wants to stop him, but if she does anything, then she'll try stripping him naked. \~/ The ardeur is an STD because if someone is in the throes of one and they touch someone else, they'll get infected too.
Auggie keeps on trying to get Anita to respond and she doesn't want to but she also "wanted to trace his shoulders, his chest, see the muscled promised of him nude before me". And...
Several things here. One good. Bad first. First of all, I thought the point of foreplay is that it takes a while and it's time for you and your partner(s) to enjoy each other, not just causing body reactions to get you to a point when your body is ready to have sex. \~/. Second, Auggie is FORCING himself onto Anita and she's in the midst of the aurder this is not him hitting her "emotional markers" but instead her being abused. It's not a good thing. \~/\~/ \~/ \~/
The GOOD thing comes at the end when she actually prays. See, she was supposed to be a practicing believing Catholic and hadn't been doing much about it because she wasn't in traditional society. But, "For years I hadn't prayed during times like this, too embarrassed, but I'd finally realized that if my faith was real, then it didn't desert me just because I was outside societal norms." See that? See that there? That's a tiny slice of character development right there! That tiny itty bitty sentence was more interesting to me than the rest of the book that I've just read. We've just learned that Anita had stopped feeling like she had faith because of her life style but now realized that it doesn't matter, she can believe what she wants to believe when she wants to.
That's interesting. I would dearly love to explore the concept more of Anita dealing with these two conflicting sides. |~| <--- chocolate milk.
Unfortunately, this gets tossed aside for more of shit I don't care about.\~/\~/ She calls up her beast and bites Auggie. Interesting, it's only when she calls up the beast does she really feel the that she has ability or right to break free and scream for help and fight. She's not allowed to, only this beast. \~/
They fight and suddenly everything smells of roses as Auggie starts to make Anita magically love him.
No. Really.
Elvira possesses Anita (and she can feel her eyes turn "pale brown like dark honey filled with fire") and Elvira knows what Anita knows and sees what Anita sees. Elvira bitches at Auggie, letting us know that when Auggie makes someone love them it's permanent and he loves them back. He tried to make Elvira love him and so they love each other and this is a bitchy horrible thing. She has issues too. She says that all love her but is doubtful about it. \~/\~/
And then she throws out the original Aurder \~/ which fills the room like a poisonous gas and Auggie has everyone clear out before it can touch everyone, while he blocks it. Everyone clears out (Samuel and family is actually mentioned!) and JC shows up and we get our first ma petite \~/ and our description of him. *fortifies* \~/\~/
\~/\~/ Velvet? Eighties. Elvis. Cat. He sounds like a ren-fair reject. Apparently he usually wears more jewelry and expensive clothing but is going under cover as someone not so powerful. Because you can really tell how powerful someone is by how they dress. Also, did anyone else picture JC's gliding body kinda like Candle Ja-
*reappears several hours later with much booze*
Um. Right. So where I was I? Yes. JC kinda sounds like Candle Ja-
*reappears again after a few more hours*
Skipping ahead! JC envelopes Anita which helps her fight against Elvira, who gets spiteful and is all "Auggie and JC used to fuck what do you think about that?" Anita is not shocked. She doesn't know why, but she's not. \~/ My guess is, it's because it's more convenient for her to be -after a long paragraph to get us there - sympathetic to Auggie.(Including a "It wasn't just the lace of black lashes and the drowning color for the first time convinced me that gray could be as beautiful as blue, but the look in those eyes" \~/) \~/ Also it makes her reaction different from Elvira, who is glad Auggie is all wow, which automatically makes Anita better. \~/
Yay \~/
Elvira shows Anita Auggie begging her to take him back or something... it's dramatic or something and involved a lot of Anita's clothes getting torn off so that the more of JC's skin she feels the more protected she is against Elvira who gets shunted off with this brilliant rejoinder of "I'm going, I'm going, enjoy my gifts." Ooooh... the evil... it shakes me in my boots. \~/
More gibberish as JC shows Anita him giving Auggie the Aurduer\~/ as a friend after he asks Auggie to lend him a ship to get to the Americas. It's supposed to show us how connected the two of them are and that they only had sex with each other to make Auggie feel the Aurdeur again. \~/
Or something.\~/
In any case, we black out before we get smex.
Or do we...?
We're brought back to the "present" and JC says we were buying time. Time for what?
Well, the next chapter begins with "The Ardeur came and the clothes went".
Drinks: 30
Chapter Eight
Auggie has grabbed Dear Anita up in his arms and brought the ardeur up into her.
Passion like something touchable, solid, spilled up through my body and over his. Lust like some thick, heavy paint flowed over us, covering us, trapping us.
When writing erotica, it's best NOT to bring up images of the Three Stooges. \~/
Anita is very panicky about what he did to her or what she did to him.
Then an epiphany hits me. The ardeur is rape justification. Let me walk you through this one so that you can see where I'm coming from.
Traditionally rape has always been the woman's fault. She was asking for it. The way she looked at a guy. The way she dressed. The fact that she was outside. Something she did cause the man to become overwhelmed with the desire to have sex with her. And it's something she should have been able to control, but didn't or something.
The ardeur is an overwhelming need for sex. When it surfaces anyone who is near Anita needs to have sex with her. She can't control who it touches, it's not their fault when it does touch them. It is, instead all her fault. If she knew how to control it, it wouldn't have happened and there wouldn't be a massive orgy. With Auggie it's saying that Anita goes from "finding Auggie handsome, arrogant, and beginning not to like him, to wanting to be naked with him" . It's obviously her perception, her fault for this. If she didn't have the ardeur she wouldn't have made him want to jump her like this, or for Thea and her son Thomas to want to jump her, or have forced Graham to want her or any of this.
Does that make sense?
So, Auggie is all "WANT" and Anita is "NO" and JC is coming (but not like that)! And Anita is holding so still that only her heart is moving, so she's obviously is dead because she's not breathing. The book ends. We all cheer. Auggie apparently gets off by just touching. \~/\~/
And then we learn that it's not Anita he wants but the Ardeur. Apparently Belle Morte the "Dark Mistress, the creator of them all" Beautiful Death. What a name for a vampire. Especially an ancient and old vampire. I have this picture of Belle Morte slinking around now going, "I am the MISTRESS OF DEATH AND DARKNESS" before introducing the next B movie, like Elvira. \~/ And no, I'm not drunk. \~/ Yet. \~/.
Whenever someone of Elvira's line uses "her" or "She" They're referring to dear Elvira. She sends Auggie dreams at night that make him remember the ardeur I suppose she's a MILF? Auggie is quite upset about this and Anita wants to stop him, but if she does anything, then she'll try stripping him naked. \~/ The ardeur is an STD because if someone is in the throes of one and they touch someone else, they'll get infected too.
Auggie keeps on trying to get Anita to respond and she doesn't want to but she also "wanted to trace his shoulders, his chest, see the muscled promised of him nude before me". And...
I wanted to trace his shoulders, his chest, see the muscled promised of him nude before me. It was like months, or years, of dating and wanting all packed into moments. Requiem, one our imports from Britain, could cause instant body reaction, hours of really good foreplay in seconds of power. Could Auggie hit the emotional markers as fast as Requiem could hit the physical ones? Sweet Mary, Mother of God, help me.
Several things here. One good. Bad first. First of all, I thought the point of foreplay is that it takes a while and it's time for you and your partner(s) to enjoy each other, not just causing body reactions to get you to a point when your body is ready to have sex. \~/. Second, Auggie is FORCING himself onto Anita and she's in the midst of the aurder this is not him hitting her "emotional markers" but instead her being abused. It's not a good thing. \~/\~/ \~/ \~/
The GOOD thing comes at the end when she actually prays. See, she was supposed to be a practicing believing Catholic and hadn't been doing much about it because she wasn't in traditional society. But, "For years I hadn't prayed during times like this, too embarrassed, but I'd finally realized that if my faith was real, then it didn't desert me just because I was outside societal norms." See that? See that there? That's a tiny slice of character development right there! That tiny itty bitty sentence was more interesting to me than the rest of the book that I've just read. We've just learned that Anita had stopped feeling like she had faith because of her life style but now realized that it doesn't matter, she can believe what she wants to believe when she wants to.
That's interesting. I would dearly love to explore the concept more of Anita dealing with these two conflicting sides. |~| <--- chocolate milk.
Unfortunately, this gets tossed aside for more of shit I don't care about.\~/\~/ She calls up her beast and bites Auggie. Interesting, it's only when she calls up the beast does she really feel the that she has ability or right to break free and scream for help and fight. She's not allowed to, only this beast. \~/
They fight and suddenly everything smells of roses as Auggie starts to make Anita magically love him.
No. Really.
Elvira possesses Anita (and she can feel her eyes turn "pale brown like dark honey filled with fire") and Elvira knows what Anita knows and sees what Anita sees. Elvira bitches at Auggie, letting us know that when Auggie makes someone love them it's permanent and he loves them back. He tried to make Elvira love him and so they love each other and this is a bitchy horrible thing. She has issues too. She says that all love her but is doubtful about it. \~/\~/
And then she throws out the original Aurder \~/ which fills the room like a poisonous gas and Auggie has everyone clear out before it can touch everyone, while he blocks it. Everyone clears out (Samuel and family is actually mentioned!) and JC shows up and we get our first ma petite \~/ and our description of him. *fortifies* \~/\~/
He was dressed in his signature colors, black and white. A black velvet jacket barely touched the top of his waist. The white lace of his shirt spilled out between the blackness, held at the neck by the cameo that had been one of my first presents to him. The pants were leather and looked poured on. The knee-high black boots were some of the plainest he owned. Of course with his body gliding towards us there was nothing plain about him.
\~/\~/ Velvet? Eighties. Elvis. Cat. He sounds like a ren-fair reject. Apparently he usually wears more jewelry and expensive clothing but is going under cover as someone not so powerful. Because you can really tell how powerful someone is by how they dress. Also, did anyone else picture JC's gliding body kinda like Candle Ja-
*reappears several hours later with much booze*
Um. Right. So where I was I? Yes. JC kinda sounds like Candle Ja-
*reappears again after a few more hours*
Skipping ahead! JC envelopes Anita which helps her fight against Elvira, who gets spiteful and is all "Auggie and JC used to fuck what do you think about that?" Anita is not shocked. She doesn't know why, but she's not. \~/ My guess is, it's because it's more convenient for her to be -after a long paragraph to get us there - sympathetic to Auggie.(Including a "It wasn't just the lace of black lashes and the drowning color for the first time convinced me that gray could be as beautiful as blue, but the look in those eyes" \~/) \~/ Also it makes her reaction different from Elvira, who is glad Auggie is all wow, which automatically makes Anita better. \~/
Yay \~/
Elvira shows Anita Auggie begging her to take him back or something... it's dramatic or something and involved a lot of Anita's clothes getting torn off so that the more of JC's skin she feels the more protected she is against Elvira who gets shunted off with this brilliant rejoinder of "I'm going, I'm going, enjoy my gifts." Ooooh... the evil... it shakes me in my boots. \~/
More gibberish as JC shows Anita him giving Auggie the Aurduer\~/ as a friend after he asks Auggie to lend him a ship to get to the Americas. It's supposed to show us how connected the two of them are and that they only had sex with each other to make Auggie feel the Aurdeur again. \~/
Or something.\~/
In any case, we black out before we get smex.
Or do we...?
We're brought back to the "present" and JC says we were buying time. Time for what?
Well, the next chapter begins with "The Ardeur came and the clothes went".
Drinks: 30
